Real moments of joy

This picture illustrates well the difference between how I think things will be in my head, and how they often turn out. I have been made aware during my step work that I need to let go for this drive for perfection, which is to be honest fairly self centred. The only my view of…

Gratitude list

1- My son who has some mental health issues had a great time on his school residential trip. I am so grateful to be emotionally present to experience his happiness. 2- I am grateful to my husband for making me laugh and offering to cook tea when I got in from my meeting. 3- I…

Mother’s Day

Pretty soon its Mother day in the U.K. The novelty being this year I am sober and I care a lot about what I get people. I have my mum (total super star) who occasionally reads this so I shall say no more! I have also my husbands mother, who is very religious and I…

Don’t believe everything you think

I have had a hard time over the last 4 days, and I am trying to work out why. I am self aware enough to notice negative thoughts and patterns emerging during the day, but I don’t think I am yet practised enough to work my way out of them. The first stage of this…

Error 4.04

So after a long and hard day yesterday I crawled into bed, ready to sleep like it was. New Olympic sport. No need to get up in the morning and the hope that my nagging headache might actually go. Basically I imagined this would be me: (Except not a cat) Instead after a couple of…

Day two of snow- when the inevitable happens

After a fair amount of snow joy, today I am feeling utterly trapped. I had quite a nice morning- I even managed to get out for a run (well, plod) at 6.30am. Since then the kids and I also went out in the snow with our lovely friends, but since then I have not been…

Snow day gratitude and a knitting disaster

We never *ever* get snow where we live, so the kids were beyond excited when school was cancelled today for a snow day. We were up and out early, and at the park with the sledges. Tell you what- I had forgotten how much the cold can hurt your hands! The kids were wrapped in…