This picture illustrates well the difference between how I think things will be in my head, and how they often turn out. I have been made aware during my step work that I need to let go for this drive for perfection, which is to be honest fairly self centred. The only my view of the world is right, that nothing else quite measures up.
This weekend I have felt some moments of genuine joy and serenity. It was Mothers’s day in the U.K. My husband (bless his socks) worked really hard with the kids to make it special for me. There were beautiful hand made cards, a really cool fire pit as a pressie, kids helped with lunch and breakfast in bed. In the past I probably would have ruined this day, if not by being a drink arsehole, then by sulking as it wasn’t quite what I had in mind. How selfish can one person be?! Anyway, I am really glad that I handed by day over, and that I didn’t need to control what happened. I believe that doing that allowed my family to enjoy the weekend, and helped us grow closer together.