I didn’t used to be able to do hard things. Not sober much anyway. I made them into things I couldn’t manage. I panicked. I projected onto other people. I made every issue about me. I didn’t cope or manage at all. I feel like now I am coping better. I am able to take a step back and see that not everything is my fault, indeed the world does not revolve around me, and that often if I leave well alone things will work out without my intervention.
Shit does still happen. I still get annoyed. I still sometimes feel disconnected, or isolated, but now I know how to reach out for help. Who to talk too, how I can make the situation better, and my day easier. Taking a step back isn’t easy, and I am realising it will take years of practice for it to be habitual in my life, but even so, it is practice that is worth it.