The pendulum and the pit

(Yeh I know, the title is the wrong way round)

I don’t know if I should be blogging my journey anymore. I was advised against it by a lady at AA, who said I might write unkind thing, about others of myself. I am also painfully aware that many people I know read this, and although they have the best of intentions I am not always as honest or open as I would like to be, lest they think even less of me now than they already do. I am also having what I say be the cause of real issues at home, and so I feel very uncomfortable writing at the moment. I feel like I don’t have the right, and when I feel more uncomfortable than I did.

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I wish it wasn’t so. I am finding writing very therapeutic, and I am not sure what I will do in the space that it leaves, but I guess that it my problem. Take up juggling with knives? Learn to walk on stilts? Trapeze in those cool sequined leggings? *apparently all my things I want to do are linked to running about to join the circus?!* Anyway, I might write here again, but I am releasing myself of my promise to write every day. Take care.

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2 Comments Add yours

  1. You can write! Many bloggers go to AA and write! I am one of them. So does Mark, and Damien!
    xo
    Wendy

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    1. I think I decided bugger it I am going to write today. It just helps a lot and I feel more connected to like minded folk- which has got to be a good thing, right?

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